13 February 2013 - Sami Elia

I'm really excited to say that we have a name for our little baby that we just lost. I've been praying that God would give us the perfect one and we think He has. =) It's been a hard few days, and I will have more hard days ahead, but this is a little light in the midst of pain. Although I feel that this baby was a girl, we will never know on this earth, so we went with a gender neutral name. My husband suggested the first name, and we went from there. Our baby is named Sami Elia Christofi (pronounced Sahmie). The name is completely gender neutral, and means "God has heard," and "God has answered." It fits perfectly because God heard our hearts' desire to conceive again, and answered it, yet He also showed us that it is HE who controls if or when we conceive, and if or when we lose. Painful, especially for someone like me who likes to be in control, but a reminder, nonetheless, to myself, that my God hears each little cry and answers, more perfectly than I could ever know, but often not how I would have asked. I don't know the "answers" or "good" part of this story yet, but I'm clinging to the One who knew Sami and knew Sami's times and the impact they would have before they even began.