9 November 2012 - Praise #1

Praise #1. God worked in the heart of the perinatologist and he is going to induce me tomorrow morning at 8am because he knows how important it is to us. Normally we'd have to wait until Monday or Tuesday. My midwife (the best ever) said that our son should be here sometime between tomorrow night and Sunday morning. Please be praying for us as we continue down this most painful of journeys. I know that God will bring us through and provide grace for the moment, but it still hurts more than words can say to realize that we won't be leaving that hospital with our newborn. We will never get to walk him up those stairs and into our home. We will never hear his cry nor watch him take his first breath. But as two dear friends reminded me... I have had the privilege of carrying my son to the arms of my Saviour, and I can know that my son left the safety of my womb (where he knew only love) for the arms of Jesus. No hurt, no pain... a picture of warmth, safety, and love. My eyes weep, my heart aches, but my mind knows that one day I will have the privilege of holding my precious, WHOLE son in my arms. How I long for that day, but pray that in the meantime, my pain will be used by Him for His glory.